Will She Let Him In?

I know I use too many song lyrices to say what I feel...but sometimes there's no way to say it better than what has already been written. So with that said, I give you ....what else....more song lyrics! LOL

"Say It Right"

In the day

In the night

Say it right

Say it all

You either got it

Or you don't

You either stand or you fall

When your will is broken

When it slips from your hand

When there's no time for joking

There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me

No you don't mean nothing at all to me

But you got what it takes to set me free

Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault

I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark

I can't say that I don't know that I am alive

And all of what I feel I could show

You tonight you tonight

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me

No you don't mean nothing at all to me

But you got what it takes to set me free

Oh you could mean everything to me

From my hands I could give you

Something that I made

From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid

From my body I could show you a place God knows

You should know the space is holy

Do you really want to go?

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I love this song. She knows that he might have what she needs, but she wants to

deny that by saying he doesn't mean anything to her. He does, obviously, or at least she thinks he might be the one. You know THE one.

But she's thought that before.

I used to believe in a soul mate. I think we connect to some people better

than others. Our heart just knows the path to their heart. Being with them

feels like home. We all want that, I think, on some level.

So Let's Talk

It's been a long time since I've posted on this blog. Not sure why I am now. I think I just need a place to chronicle my Life? My SL one and my real one.

I'm feeling really confused about life in general. Like where do I fit in? I've spent the last 12 years of my life immersed in a virtual world with a few breaks here and there. I was a different person then when I fist logged in October 18, 2006. I had no idea I would still be there 12 years later.

Today, I gave up my sim I've lived on for the past year. I think that's a move in the right direction but it's still a little depressing. Another SL relationship didn't work out and to be honest, I have to start looking at myself as I seem to be the constant in these failed endeavors.

Feeling depressed for a while now. Not just because of the relationship and giving up my sim but also because I just don't have any excitement about SL anymore. I gave up blogging a while back but at least I still enjoyed the artistic pursuit of taking photos. Now I can't seem to get motivated to do that. Blah. Hate complaining here and feeling sorry for myself. Sorry to anyone out there reading this.

I also wonder if blogs aren't a dying medium or forum. I think it is for the most part. Not many people read anymore. lol At least not long rambling rantings of a depressed person. So I think I'll just look at this as my journal. If someone stumbles across it....  fine. If not, it's okay, too. Maybe it will give me an incentive to take a pic to go with each post. We'll see.

I have a lot to say but really not much at the same time, if that makes sense. I've been trying to figure out why I've always got this sadness that resides just under the surface. I'd like to say it has something to do with my mom dying of cancer when I was 22 but that was like 20 years ago. I haven't been the same since a relationship ended but again that's been like 6 years ago now so that can't be it.  Last year around this time I was diagnosed with Grave's disease and some of its symptoms are fatigue and depression and anxiety. It comes and goes, tho, so that can't be it. *sigh*  See? boring blog post. Lol

I'm just not much fun anymore. I used to be. Or at least I thought I was. haha. I used to laugh more. God this is all about me, isn't it.There needs to be a theme to this. I'll think about it. Not sure I want to continue this or if I just needed to vent today.

Can't seem to complete anything. I did get a small parcel but no energy or enthusiasm for decorating or fixing it up. Maybe I'm done with SL. The scary thing is, it's been such a huge part of my life for so long, I don't know what else to do with my time. I'm craving creative time.... but do I even know how to paint anymore? I feel like a lot of doors have closed but none have opened yet. Maybe it's too soon. Maybe I need to process the closed door first and move on before things start opening up.
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I saw a pin on Pinterest that said "Move On. Do Better." I like that. I need to do better. Be better.

I've also been reading about INFJs. Following this guy on youtube, Frank James. Maybe that's my problem. I'm just an INFJ. ha! Who knows.

Okay more later maybe. Thanks for reading. ♥

I Have a New Blog!

I've been thinking about getting my own domain for a long time now and I finally did it over the holidays. Please join me at:   www.jooniejatho.com   Thank you and thanks for all the support over the years! ♥

Wish me a wishing well to kiss and tell

APHORISM - Chunky knit cardigan/Autumn cami dress @ The Season's Story
*opens Oct 10 @ midnight*

Wasabi Pills - Aiko w/ braids @ The Chapter Four

Maitreya - Dahlia Socks

Earthstones - Broken Heart Necklace

Location - IASWAS

♥

Run Away

Jacket: Thalia Heckroth - Jo jacket (NEW)

Entwined Hair - Zoe @ The Crossroads Event

Ricielli Earrings - Koko @ Shiny Shabby

Pose: Bauhaus Movement

Location: Isle of Serendipity

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Movember with Consignment, ieQED and the Geeks n' Nerds Fair

21Shoe Event - David Heather

Happy Coffee Day ♥

It's finally cooling off in RL where I live which makes me want to wear cozy things in SL. Bueno released this awesome sweater dress for this round of Uber. It comes in solids and patterns and I love the style.

Speaking of Bueno, they've also released On The Go gacha items like this bag and coffee cups just in time for National Coffee Day! They can be found at Kustom9.

Essences has released Natasja skin for the Catwa mesh head at the Cosmopolitan event. I LOVE this skin. So gorgeous and the hud is easy to use with a lip gloss included. Nice! ♥

The hair is a previous release from Truth Hair, of course. And the cross necklace is from Mandala, also a release from several years ago. These are Triumph eyes, the newest ones from IKON. All landmarks can be found below!

Essences skin: Natasja for Catwa mesh head (Jessica) @ Cosmopolitan 

Bueno: Sweater dress - crosses @ Uber

Bueno: ON THE GO - Fall Bag and coffee cup @ Kustom9

Truth Hair: Rumi @ mainstore

Mandala: Ero-Sensei necklace @ mainstore

Tee*fy: black shine leggings

IKON: Triumph eyes - Oxidation

Catwa: Jessica Mesh head

Maitreya: Lara Mesh Bod

Location: Saint Pete City

Pose: Coffee Cup pose

Will I Fall for You

Hair: Truth Hair - Emerson

Dress: The Annex - Beth dress @ Shiny Shabby

Pose: Repose - Country Fence pose prop @ My Attic

Location: My Parcel on Flux. Designed by Shavvn Resident. (thanks bro)