No Longer Waiting...Found It!

It was inside me all along....

Today is my birthday. I've decided to make some very difficult but important decisions.
I want my life to be open to new possibilities. So I have done some things to make
room for new people, new adventures, new opportunities for my life.

I don't know what this year will bring. But in order to make true friends and
live MY life, I needed to take a cold, hard look at the people currently in my
life and slife and face some facts. It was painful and not easy. I'm glad I found
the strength to look, tho, and to face things straight on.

Sometimes I want something so badly that I'm unwilling to see the truth
staring me in the face. I want to believe that I am loved and valued by those
people who say they are my friends. And it so sux when you realize that
it's just words.

BUT..and here's the icing on the cake (chocolate birthday cake, of course!) Once we
face the cold, hard truth, we are able to make decisions that are very freeing. Rather
than demanding and pushing and wanting someone to be who we want them to be,
we are free to make our own way, create our own lives and listen to our own heart.
Being needy is human, but there comes a time when we have to stand on our own
two feet and give ourselves the love and value we are looking for "out there."

So, on this day, my present to myself is freedom. I need this so badly. I think SL
has done a dance on my heart and mind...and not a good one! LOL But why give
other people the power to do that? Why indeed. What am I so afraid of? Why have
I been abdicating my own life to other people and giving my power away? I don't know
the answer to that. I need to figure it out.

Today I am a force to be reckoned with. Look out world. And if you don't like me, that's
ok. I am who I am. My heart is pure and loving, my mind is creative and fun-loving,
and if you don't like it, you can kiss my ass. How's that for affirmation? ;-)

Thanks for reading. I hope you do the same for yourself.

And thanks Dom, Pinky, Sands, Blissie, Papaya, Casey, Dyami, Trouble, Bailey, Aimee, Bon and all of my friends for
being an inspiration to me in one way or another.

*hugs*