Struggle

I'm really struggling with this blog. Since getting reacquainted with my RL, it's difficult to say much about SL. It's like it's all been said before, regardless of which side you fall on concerning any "hot topic"...does it really matter? It just doesn't to me.

Not to judge anyone for letting SL be their "end all and be all" of their reality. God knows I did the same thing for longer than I'd like to admit. But all of sudden, like a bolt of lightening, reality slaps upside the face and it's like...WHOA!! I've spent how much time each day for how many days in f'ing SL?!?!

Anyway, waaaaay off the topic I was veering towards. Umm...which was...about...
OH..this blog. LOL Well, I love writing and SL always gave me so much to write about. And, unfortunately, if I don't have my angsty, emo ways to talk about...I'm really rather boring.

So I've kind of been using youtube vids that people are sending me as a way to get motivated again. If you have one you'd like to share...send me the link!
Not sure of a way to have it be anonymous if you don't want me to know who sent it. My email is: joonie220@yahoo.com

Okay, another friend sent me the following youtube. It's kinda cool. I used to love this show sooooo much. Here's the vid:




Normally, this is where I'd pontificate on the "meaning" of the vid, but I think for once, I'll just take it in and be quiet.

Thanks for reading..
JoJo

The End?

A friend sent me the following youtube vid. Said it reminded her of what she was feeling in her SL relationship. We've all been there. As much as we might feel for someone in SL, it's so difficult to pick up on things the other person might be feeling, or not feeling, through chat/im. To try to have an SL relationship using only chat/im is asking for all kinds of missed cues like body language and voice intonations. But people do it all the time. I just don't see any long term success. Eventually, voice or phone or cam has to be put into play.

So what about those who want to keep their SL and RL totally separate? I don't know really. I think if you can view the relationship as one for fun only and nothing serious, it can be done. My experience is that eventually, one of the parties involved wants more than the other one. One may want RL even though it has been agreed upon in the beginning that that will not happen. And that is the beginning of the end.

Here's to you, you know who you are! I hope things work out for you. *hugs*

Crazy Girl

Exploring SL is one of the more fun things I do in SL. Discovering places that lead to other places....like Dr Suess said..." oh the places we'll go." Do you ever just roam the grid in a random way? Like one place, profile leads you to another and then another? Me tooooo!

So today I was tp'd to Digit Darkes now sim/store. It is absolutley amazing. I don't know when it will open to the public. She hopes by Sept. 1 but we all know how much time it takes to do things perfectly. And she never settles for less.

Anyway, it is spectacular! I can't wait for her to open it. There are still a few shops open. Only upscale shops need apply. OMG...you will not believe this sim. So much fun, so much to see, and awesome shops so far.

So while exploring all the awesomeness, I found a few things I would like to own. Won't tell you what they are, but really cool things. Had to click on the object to see who the creator was. That lead to many other adentures as I read profiles and starting popping in all over the grid.

One stop in particular was a lot of fun. The shop is called Shadow Things. It's a small little shop with skins and AO's mostly. One of the AO's is called Crazy Girl and I could NOT pass it up. LOL

Gone Goin'

I love this vid. I recently quit my job of 6 years. At times it can feel a bit scary. Other times I'm soooo glad I finally did it. Almost everyone said, in this economy, it was a really bad idea. Maybe so if my only concern was money, which it has been for a very long time. But at some point, I knew I had to get out of there or I would wake up every morning dreading the day. Can't live like that, you know?

So this vid is a Jack Johnson song that he did with the BEPs. It was made by a group of friends so it's really cool. Not professionally done but lots of fun to watch.

Enjoy!




Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He's a rich man so he's no longer singing the blues
He's singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don't bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain't singing from the heart
Sooner or later he's just gonna fall apart
Cause his fans can't relate to his new found art
He ain't doing what he did from the start
And that's putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Cash in his love for material

[Chorus]
And its gone... gone... going...
Gone... everything gone... give a damn...
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing...
Gone people... all awkward with their things... gone.

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe cause it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Cause you don't really know, don't really know
Who he is, the person that's deep within
Cause you are content with just being the name-brand man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I've seen your kind before
You're the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with incense sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Cause... what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its...

[Chorus]

You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about... that crime that you did to get paid
And what about... that bid, you can't take it to your brain
What about those shoes you'll wear today
They'll do no good on the bridges you burnt along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold purse on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what's worst is your soul's already gone

Interrupted

I can't not write (double negative?). There is something inside me that wants to be heard. So here I am...again. This time, I'm not going to fight the need to do this. Do you ever feel like there's an inner voice that needs expression? Perhaps that's what art is. The inner heart/body/mind needing to be heard, to be expressed. The creator must create.

I am by no means saying I am an artist and you are not. We all have a voice that needs to be heard; an artist within. Maybe not by the masses, but by whomever needs to hear it. Experience it. I think we all find what we need eventually. To borrow from an old Stones song, "...we can't always get what we want, but we get what we need." Amen to that, brother.

The new title of this blog, SL Avatar Interrupted, is how I see myself. My 'journey' or whatever you want to call it, was kidnapped for a while. I veered off course. But I learned a lot about myself. What, you might asked? Same as everyone else that's been in SL for any length of time. It's difficult to put into words. It's more of an experience, an awakening to reality.

Facing reality isn't always a fun thing to do. Especially when what is seen is not something wanted or needed. In my case, facing what the truth was for me, rather than what I wanted, was especially painful. But the rare gem that comes out of that, once I stopped the self pity and realized my pain is not any greater than anyone else's, is that there were tons of self actualization and strength on the other side.

So here I am, giving voice to the wounded, the hurt, the manipulated, the played of this brave new world called Second Life. It's really not about that at all. There's a much bigger arena than finding love. Love is still awesome, as long as it's reciprocated. I got so caught up in the need to feel loved at any cost, I lost myself in the process. No one did this to me. I did it to myself. Or I allowed this to happen to me. I believe, if my self esteem had been higher, I would have put myself first and being played would never have happened. But it did and today I am glad. I have a story to share with those of us who have been hurt there. But more than that, today I feel stronger than I ever have. My Second Life is MY Second Life. I'm not living it for anyone else but me.

And I've rediscovered Real Life. It's an amazing place.

I wish you well on your journey, both first and second. And it feels good to be back here tapping away at the keyboard. There's no telling what kind of stuff will show up here. LOL (maybe I shouldn't be on the feeds?)

Learning as I go,
Joonie

Moby

Lordy don't leave me
All by myself
Good time's the devil
I'm a force of heaven
Lordy don't leave me
All by myself
So many time's I'm down
Down down
With the ground
Lordy don't leave me
All by myself
Whoa, in this world
Lordy don't leave me
All by myself

Moby
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There's a post vid that is really cool but doesn't allow embedding. I'll post the link. Enjoy!

Sunday Was a Bright Day

Goodbye